Just a little recap of my wonderful break from work so far. I only wished that I really didn’t have to go back. January is going to be a crying month for me. *sigh*
PRECHRISTMAS HOLS at Penang was awesome albeit short. As I blogged previously, I had the privilege of yummy food. If you want a variety of hawker food, head to “Sua Tow lane” in the city which has char koay teow to “fried oh jien” (omelet with lala) but the pai tee wasn’t that tasty at all! I really liked the prawn mee though with maggie mee instead of the typical egg noodle.
JOGOYA was where we went on christmas eve. super happy the bf is back! we just relaxed the day he was back and of course, being a food lover, he decided that he wanted to go to Jogoya for it’s famous buffet spread and especially the fresh oysters. And so, I braved the KL jam for an hour in my trusty blue proton, Edward just so the bf could whet his appetite. However, it wasn’t as good as he remembered it or perhaps aussie’s fresh oyster has spoilt it for him! *hehe*
CHRISTMAS HOLS so far has been reallllly relaxing. All we’ve done so far is sleep, watchëd “criminal minds”and hanged out at starbucks surfing, blogging and facebooking. Man. I so really am dreading work after all this leisure and taking things easy.. *sigh*
There’s so much more I want to do and so many more places I want to go. Malacca, Genting Highlands, Singapore etc and so many people to meet up like NiNi etc. Well, one more week to truly enjoy my holiday and also my bf before it’s back to work! *yikes*
And with the coming new year fast approaching signifying the end of the Rat year, I’ve been thinking of my 2009 resolutions and aims and goals. I mean, the rat year wasn’t any spectacular or fantastic and neither did anything significant transpired! Which brings me to hoping that somehow maybe the ox year might be better for a little tiny rat’s fate.
HAPPY NEW YEAR to all!!!
ON A GREAT WEEKEND at Penang and Ipoh. had char koay teow. teh ping. prawn noodles. popiah. pai tee. and did i mention char koay teow?? hehe. too bad i didn’t manage to get tambum piah from soon hiang at jln kuantan. they were sold out as usual. detoured to ipoh was fun too for food and shopping. however, this round i bought less stuff. just a pair of wegdes for rm30. my mum on the other hand had a happy shoe shopping spree and bought a total of 5 pairs of shoes!!!
ON GIRLY COUSINS this time round, i had a really bonding girly session with my cousins chitchatting til 2am, shopping and make up session, nail polishing session too! we watched movies til 4am in the morn and were in a daze the next day! my super smart cousin was really funny with her cute antics especially when i scratched her palms. she”ll start squealing in an endearing matter. Boy, my cousins have all grown up from those tiny lil girls to the now young ladies and we were pondering on our “male cousins” and their wayward thinkings!
ON DRIVING and how i super love to speed! i know i know. it’s not safe but somehow i can’t seem to endure driving at 100km/hr etc. somehow, as we cruise along the highway, the meter will just rise 101km… 110km… 140km… 160km… and the idiot in front of me will be crawling at a snail pace! well, snail pace for the fast lane!! EVERYONE knows that right lanes are for ppl who are speeding and those who prefer to drive like a snail at a leisurely pace should stick to the left lanes but NOOO… ppl who love hogging the roads will just crawl at their tortoise pace on my right lane! and here i m having to put my signal indicating i want to overtake! my mum lagi ganas, she’ll just flash her highbeams!!
MALAYSIAN DRIVERS are the best! (and for the dense, i mean the “best” in sarcastic tone) Because 80-90% do not know how to drive courteously and smartly. They just switched lanes at their whims and fancy and most of the times without putting on their signals which makes me wonder why does car manufacturers even waste money and time putting it in, right? The worst ones are those that you have to jam break for cos they decide to suddenly cut to your lane out of nowhere with no indication whatsoever! Then there are those who crawl like turtles and even when ppl behind them “pressure” by driving super close to their bumpers, they still drive at their turtle pace. FOR CRYING OUTLOUD!!! just keep to the left lane and let the fast driver overtake la!!! OMG right?
CURTEOUS DRIVERS are still out there… after all the BAD drivers one has the misfortune to come across there are the minority GOOD drivers who will thank you when you give way to them or when you gesture where ur car is to the other person who is looking for parking. i make it a point to give way to those who indicate they want to cut to your lane or at roundabouts when they are swerving past u to their lanes or when there’s no point to go further front because to do so, i’ll be in the yellow box or i’ll just be blocking everyone else. Instead, i’ll gesture for the other person to cross to the other side. man. why can’t ppl be civic minded? it’s not as if it’s a big a deal to be curteous rite? sheesh.
RELATIONSHIPS and people specifically can be downright inconsiderate and selfish at times and other times, they can take you forgranted and treat you callously. Sometimes, they only come to you when there isn’t anyone else or perhaps they tell you only part of certain things and it makes you feel that you are the best of friends or other times they asked why you don’t include them at all in some of your plans but the funny thing is they do it to you!!!
and it’s funny how it’s easier being objective in other ppl’s relationship. then again, i guess there should be no surprises seeing how in other ppl’s relationship, one’s feelings just aren’t involved at all! well, i really hope a certain someone would know just to let go. of course there will be pain and heartache but it will fade with time. it’s better this way then to cling on to something for affection and love but instead receive abominable treatment!
ok. once again, i blog like how i think. unorganised and unstructured.. thoughts flying all over the place.. anyways.. gotta head off to bed. big day tmr!! wheeee…
annual dinner was on friday, held at oneworld hotel. the food wasn’t that great but i bet they charged a bomb, the company was only so-so unfortunately and due to me feeling uncomfy in my dress, i didn’t mingle much which is yet another regret… as usual. felt rather frumpy somehow and conscious =( d dress was brilliant but i wasn’t.
last year, i boycotted the annual dinner with 2 fellow colleagues to skip all the hassle of shopping ard for the dress and the mask, spending the money on the dress and the mask when i eventually found it and also yet another hassle of doing up the hair. So, we decided to skip annual dinner and went shopping, watched a movie and had dinner instead!! which was seriously more fun!
i got my hair done nearby my house and as usual, the outcome wasn’t exactly what i wanted. in fact, it looked like my 2006 annual dinner hairstyle. however, the back part actually looks super chun! unfortunately, i can’t post a pic of that cos the only ones i have of the back part of my hair are me in my towel. so, too bad!
well, surprising and well a diff part of the evening was that i was nominated best dress by the organisers. i wasn’t nominated cos i was pretty/chun or that my costume was super outstanding. most girls were in black or simple gowns although they were super chun with svelte figures. not only that, my colleague mentioned that others were too shy to have their pics taken and seeing that i had my pic taken, i was one of the nominees and had to walk on stage and wave my hands etc. was a trifle embarassing but it was cool to win a prize even if it was a consolation.
well, that’s hoping i’ll eventually slim down for the next one or by my wedding… in the future la… haha.. =p
with the annual dinner theme being “masquerade ball”, it would be appropriate to go with a mask in hand. i saw several at teddy tales, 1u but none that fit my gown. silly me bought a silver one which my sis says is toooooo overdone as in “gua cheong” and i also bought a plain white one. if i can perhaps do sth nice with the white one, i just might use that instead. undecided.
been googling some masks and there are actually a few simple yet elegant ones that hopefully maybe i can make mine turn out that way. wondering if i should make the base black or leave it white!! aarghh… why can’t someone make a mask for me too like kris’ cousin!!! hehe.. *hint hint*!!!
It’s almost the end of weekend and i have to say “hello” to weekdays… bluek =p
I had to forgo Frasers Hill with Mel (previously known as Lisa) to go hunting for my annual dinner dress! bleh and i was kind of dreading it thinking that i wouldn’t be able to find anything decent. I really wanted to hang out with Mel and her friends for a change but oh well. Came sat, made my way down to sg wang with my mum driving as she didn’t want me to rant on and on about the annoying malaysian drivers on the road which i tend to do while i drive. It absolutely drives my brother bonkers and my sister to cringe.
“aiyah… that supid guy simply cut lanes. Dunno how to drive wan is it? idioto!”
“i bet u that’s a typical woman driver la. simply drive. urrghh!! so annoying wan!!!”
“AAAARGHHH!!! stupid idiot! here i m cruising down n u cut my lane!!! i put indicator also dun let me go! omg la!! dunno how to drive DUN drive la!!!”
“ALL kopi- O license!!!”
However, with my mum behind the wheels, i still managed to meleter about the witless drivers on the road. *grins* i actually had a pretty good time shopping with my mum. i asked her if she wanted to look around for clothes for herself and she said she’ll come another time when she does need something and i told her the last time she said that was when we came to sg wang for my form5 prom shopping and that was 7 years AGO!!! *haha*
anyways, after about an hour, we came across a really tiny shop that was half closed by curtains and there were actually quite some nice dresses. somehow, my mum n i realised that each time we enter a shop, it’s empty. however, while we browsed or tried clothes, the shops starts to have load so of ppl which is kinda annoying cos it gets too crowded! guess we’re good attracters for business eh?
Well, i almost settled on a long red tube dress that looked really ball-ish and fit for a masquarade ball! but my mum’s sudden stomach ache n a need for the toilet led us away. after she settled her “business”, we walked for a bit more trying to find this particular shop where i bought my prom dress years ago but couldn’t seem to find it and stumbled upon this other shop.
initially, nth captured my attention and i wanted to drag my mum out but i thought just let her take her time. i kinda liked the dress on the mannequin and after my mum’s pursuation, i gave it a try and as it turns out, my mum said that it made me look slimmer than the earlier red one!
and well, as i was lazy to go hunting for more dresses and did i mention that i felt really grand in the dress! so, i bought it! of course, it would have looked better if i was slimmer. oh well. i dun mind recycling it for my future wedding dress cos it’s really sweet plus it’s white! *hehe*
now, if only i can find a nice, matching mask! any suggestions anyone??
okies.. that’s all for now. will post pics of my dress later on. heading off to read my novel and sleep.
whee.. don’t have to do hardclose!! (although we’ve started some work on it.) and that means i dun have to cancel my end year leave! well, not so whee in the sense cos client’s accounts are kinda wonky. lots of tidying up to do and i ve never done such a messy one before. i really pity the assistant for all the crap she has to tidy up. but Thank you God for a nice client! Just hope we can really pull of finals come peak period!!
and whee once again cos weekend is almost upon us!!! though i have to go and find annual dinner dress. sigh. cos with my erm body shape.. there will be limited selection. craps. any suggestions anyone? sigh. so dedicating sat to finding it. so, fingers crossed!!!
third wheeeee cos someone’s coming back soon!!! me jumping around the room with excitement!! ok not so soon but in less than a month!! still!! it’s been 4 months since we last saw each other. wished we didn’t have to continue on with LDR… =( oh well. hopefully it’s for the greater good! =p
we laughed a lot… i ber-gila a lot… we chatted really til the wee hours of the morning…
went out with lisa last wk and last nite. somehow, we seem to have LOADS to talk about and can never seem to cover everything that we have to say =) it’s funny cos we’ve been out of touch since high school til now except for the occassional bump into’s and yet we can just click! or is it clique! anyway, i realised that our circumstances in life and relationship and thinking or even some little quirks are rather similar if not the same… it felt like she’s my kindred spirit.. a bestie that i ve always longed for… (haha.. hope i m not freaking u out wei =p)
we knew each other way back many years ago in our teens (where i hated her bf’s guts and he hated mine but she always sided me in the end.. nyek nyek) and our mum’s have known each other too from many many many moonlight years ago! in fact, we’ve always joked how we could have been cousins as her uncle sort of used to have a… shal we say.. a little tendre for my mum. then again, if that had ended in a happy ending, then i wouldn’t be here cos of different genes etc.
anyways, everytime she says sth that i SO can relate to, i’ll reach over in a gesture to shake her hand and when i say sth that she feels totally sama wavelength with… she’ll shake mine! hehe. it’s rather funny. and we’re both a bit chin chai where to go which can be good and yet bad especially when i went rounding esp ytd with ss2 pasar mlm. so, we headed to curve supposedly to go to nichii to hunt for my annual dinner dress but we were side tracked at borders til they kicked us out (haha.. cos the shop was closing la.. but we were somewhat “kicked out” of padini… hehe) and we headed to kayu’s for yam cha.
talking to her abt lots of things amongst them were about relationships make me think back on mine. maybe i’ve been pushing those tots aside but sometimes, when u feel fed up or tired and unassured… one can’t help but wonder. i was saying to my mum how it seems that most guys seem contented with their gfs where else the gfs seem to grill the bf to change for the better perhaps in the sense of don’t smoke.. or dont’ drink so much.. or no tatoos etc.
and my mum said that it’s better to look for a guy that has already changed (ie dependable and reliable with good habits etc.) then be with a guy u keep hoping he’ll change bcos guys won’t change. ever. i really hope that’s not the case. if not, i min for a long haul…and a long rocky road of disappointments and sadness.
i will always tell my bf. “when i say u.. it’s not cos i want to pull u down or bring u down or downgrade u.. i say it cos i care.. if not, i wouldn’t waste my saliva seriously.” and seriously, if he really changes to be a better person, if we break up… i won’t gain from it but he will. cos he’s a better person. rite? i mean, i dun say, “hey, ure ugly.. do sth about ur face”.
when i say change.. i meant more along the lines like… mean what u say.. ur actions speak louder than words.. hence, walk ur talk. etc. oh well, some too “open” minded ppl will say too controlling la.. must close one eye and so on. no wonder ppl are turning out the way they are. somehow, openness seem to equate to looseness. then again, it’s a matter of perspective ay.
haha. too bad i dun have a pic of lisa (although i could get it off her fb) to post here. man. she said a lot of things to amused me and i said a lot of silly things back too that i wanted to blog but can’t seem to remember a blessed thing for the life of me. til the next time then…
btw, yeah.. i ve finished the novel.. so, shall pass it to u when i see u next k? =p
1) thank u that i have a stable job that pays well even if i dread it everyday.
2) thank u that i have a family. despite our differences and conflicts, we have our UPS and we’re still a family.
3) thank u that i have a bf even if sometimes things may not seem to go the way i wish it would.
4) thank u for friends who bring a smile to my face and laughter with their little ways and antiques even if sometimes i wish we were much more closer and special.
5) thank u that i have hands and arms to hug others and be hugged in return. i am a firm believer in hugs. of course, not just with any tom, dick and harry k!!
6) thank u for good and clear eyesight despite my constant abuse of them.
7) thank u for a mother who cares so much that she sacrificed so much.
8 ) thank u for constantly watching over me and being patient with me especially now as i try to find my path back to u.
How do you know if too much is too much? or know when is it too little?
Lately, ever since that mishap, i feel like throwing in the towel when small things crop up but on some level, i feel as if perhaps as i ve made my bed, i have to lie in it , bear the consequences and there’s no other way.
But is it really the only way?
i may feel a particular feeling for that issue/matter but the other person might not necessarily be insync and on the same wavelength with me which causes me to be in a little dilemma as this may very well be my future at stake!!
ppl can say one has too much expectations and that naturally leads to disappointments when those expectations aren’t met but it’s only natural for there to be expectations. how can one say don’t have any?
it’s like saying… “don’t expect a father to behave like one” or “don’t expect your tuition teacher to teach u ur money’s worth of coaching” or “don’t expect to have a heart that beats or a brain that functions or eyes that can see etc“. that’s rather asking the impossible isn’t it?
and is it so wrong to expect ppl u love and care to reciprocrate those feelings and show u the same curtesy u show them? in the case of guy n girl then ok, that’s a little tough. we’ve all been through the times where we had a crush on a guy/gal but the feelings unfortunately weren’t mutual but what i m saying is perhaps between friends or family.
i just wished i could leave everything behind n start afresh. To find the real me or the new me. I ve actually been pretty happy this past 2 weeks but there’s been a lot on my mind (i m not going to be pessimistic during out trip k, lynnie d meanie!!). issues with family.. ppl whom i call my friends or so i tot they were.. cliques i tot i were part of but it appears not. i put a lot of things on hold for bf n family n when should i say enough is enough?
i m searching for answers to my questions and somehow i feel that the answers can’t be found here where i m and if things don’t change, my questions may go unanswered.
previous weeks, a thought hit me… if i were to die tonite and there was a funeral service for me, what would u say about me? what would be my legacy that i have left behind? would u have kind words to say of me? would u say that i had helped u out in ur time of need no matter how small it may seem and how i did so? would u say that i was a good friend? a good daughter or sister?
i hope that when the time comes, someone will have something kind and nice to say of me and that i had impacted u in some point of ur life no matter how small and if i haven’t i hope that i will have the chance to do so before my time is up.
i didn’t get much present this yr but m still happy cos…
1) bf sent me pressie n ni ni too! it was a surprise as they were both busy with final exams.
2) my uncle, aunty n cousin from melbourne sent flowers.
3) colleagues bought for me perfume (i hope it’s not cos they’re meanies and think i smell which i don’t k but of course i smell nicer now with euphoria blossom by CK) and d mega trio got for me a blouse from seed (which i need to lose some weight to look better in it.. hehe) and of course belanja-ed me dinner at Pizza Uno, Centrepoint with a cake too!
3) lots of ppl wished me happy birthday.. even on facebook!
4) had dinner at Manhatten Fish Market with my family!!
5) had 2 bday cakes.. one choc cake with colleagues and a swenson choco chip ice cream with my family! and from 24 i became younger by 2 years… look at d candles…
5) my mum paid a huge portion (80%) of my hp as a bday and christmas pressie!!
and for that..